May 14, 2025

I've recently been reflecting on myself a lot, ever since finals weeks started, as I got so busy overloading with work. I feel like my life right now is a mess. There is a mess in everything I do. I have a lot of regrets this school year and I want to change. I recently saw a video about how I should leave behind any regrets as this could lead to an endless cycle of depression. If I need I should rant it out to a diary, it's not worth it to tell someone else about it. I feel that this statement rings so true. I have lost friends for one reason or another this school year but I want to move on from that and focus on myself. I want to come on here to say that I want to change my lifestyle and stop being lazy and lock in for once. I've never became quite the same ever since I transferred to my current uni. My gpa really tanked as I didn't expect the difference of difficulty between my current uni and my previous uni would be so drastic. I've also been goingot parties which I feel isn't bad but it has definitely distracted me from my academics. I did make freinds but I was left behind after I stopped showing up to parties. No hate to them tho, I feel that I just no longer fit in with them. This is something I have always struggled with but tis time I will go through wiith my word. I'm think I might just create a page I can just put all my thoughts into as well as my morning routine. I hope to hopefully improve...

May 03, 2025

Just had to come on here and rant about my allergies. GOD is it annoying when the seasonal allergies kicks in. I swear to heaven and earth my allergies havent gotten this serious since 1rst year of high school and I am so upset about it, it's not even funny. At first it was just runny nose which was pretty common for me but two days later, I woke up not being able to breath I was so cranky, thankfully my boyfriend was there to help me. And then I two days after that my eyes were so itchy so I started rubbing them like crazy (bad idea btw but I couldn't control myself) and it became so red I looked like I got pink eye. I refused to take allergy pills cuz I insisted I was fine but I gave in after having trouble doing my homework cuz I felt so terrible. And now my throat started feeling really dry. So dry to the point where I'm literally having trouble swallowing. This is the most serious case of seasonal allergies Ihave ever experienced. Although I feel much better now, I keep getting new symptoms and I just want it to be over alreadyyyy. I'm suffering and I have no power against it. The allergy pills only temperarily mediated my symptom but it never truly goes away. Ok that's all I wanted to rant about, peace.

April 25, 2025

I am not going to lie, I kind of have an issue where I would get introduced to a certain hobby or game or whatever, I would get so invested in this activity I just do it every single day of my life until the day I find something new and exciting. It was League of Legends for me and now it's Honkai Star Rail. My boyfriend had been trying to convince me the play this game for a week but I refused cuz I didn't like turn-based games. I thought it would be so boring. Until I finally gave in and tried to play the game. It was so boring even fell asleep until the story started picking up. And it spireled from there. I never stopped playing then... LOL. I have no idea why I get like this but I do. Sometimes I find myself ignoring my boyfriend because I get too invested into something and I feel bad. :( Since I am still a new player, I've been playing a lot grunt team comps but for now I am putting in a lot of effort into Himeko. But soon I want to make a team comp with Aglaea. She is just so so pretty and NEED her. Her team is so expensive tho and I have no money or materials so I'm gonna have to wait and grind T-T.

April 15, 2025

OMG, I don't know what kind of event or what kind of club was throwing that event but I got to see some cute ass farm animals on campus today as I was heading back to my dorm from class. It was so cute I had to drag my boyfriend out to see it with me! The rabbits were big and chubby. Apparently, the students could also hold the bunnies but the line was too long so I decided against it...At least I got a ton of cute pictures from it. :)

April 14, 2025

Having late night pho with my boyfriend cuz we broke asf. We didn't get food earlier in the day so all the dining halls are closed T-T. We ended up just making pho which is not bad either. If you've never hed pho before, highly recommend! It's even better with hoisin sauce and siracha. It's too bad I don't have lime in my dorm. That would've been the cherry on top. My classes begin again tmr and I don't want to go. I am just too lazy LOL.

April 13, 2025

Not doing much just working on my website. It was recently my birthday and my boyfriend bought me a box of some of my favorite snacks and a Sakura Miku figurine! My sister mailed me her gift and she did above and beyond buying me skincare and expensive perfume. I am so grateful for the gifts I received. Since I am still in school and far away from my family, I haven't really celebrated my birthday with my family yet so hopefully when I get back home there will be a strawberry cake waiting for me! I'm getting excited thinking about it. I am planning to live off-campus with my boyfriend soon but haven't signed a lease yet.. Wish me luck!